Disappointed

Working with the reoccurring behavioral and thought patterns, namely, habits today. What comes to mind first is disappointment: I am continuously disappointed with people. My experiences seem to be marked by that feeling everywhere from a short conversation to friendship to most intimate relationships. And yet I know that I can change my point of view at will just by opening my awareness to the true nature of those I encounter on my path. So, I decide to take a closer look.

Let's assume that the disappointment I feel is a mere reflection of a feeling a person I am interacting with is carrying. Are they disappointed with themselves? But it is nearly impossible for my rational mind to accept an idea that a successful according to a society's definition person I am looking at can have such a feeling. Where is the source? Believe you or not, there could be none. Sometimes we hold a feeling or an idea plainly out of a habit.

Once, or twice (it couldn't have been more than that, right?) in our childhood we were told that we are a disappointment in one way or another. I am sure it had never happened to you, but you might know someone with such an experience. And so, since it is painful to look at those beliefs and to be aware of them, we carry that baggage with us further and further into our lives. It affects our decisions, our external relationships, but first and foremost our relationship with self.

The only way to clear our reality of the old habits is to become conscious about it in order to release it. No need to analyze it or to reprimand yourself for holding them for a period of time. The time to let go is now, and today is a good day to do so. And then uplift yourself in any and every way you can. Watch the world around you change at the spot as it reflects your transformation back to you as your own beauty and worthiness. Choose to enjoy it, too!

P.S. I did it today, and what a change it was! I feel truly gifted, for the world showed me graciousness, beauty, and kindness, and I could not remember what was so disappointing about and around me before. I feel gratitude, I feel appreciation, and I feel blessed to be in this world, with you, people. Thank you for being who you are: You are wonderful!