Why Do We Ever Go Back?

Q: Why would I ever go back to where I was a month ago after all I have done and lived through to set myself free of that experience?

A: A good question indeed.

Q: Are you being sarcastic with me?

A: Not at all! What you are doing is simply being open and honest with yourself. As such, you are not afraid to keep your heart open. And that is exactly what brings you to where you want to be: a place of healed feelings that you want to experience, and you are unafraid to live with. That is where the happiness lives. That is where you planned to find your way to before you started your journey with your eyes closed, you see.

A: I really want to understand what I feel...

Q: Yes, you know it: Feelings cannot really be understood, labeled, or categorized. They cannot be controlled. You are still trying, you know that; you are trying to control your feelings. That is something that cannot be done. Just let go; whatever it is, letting go is the only way to see if it is going to go away completely and live no longer for you, or ... Do not expect us to tell you what you are going to feel, for we do not know. That is the beauty of life: You can only learn what's next by living it. Just enjoy it - it worth it. And you are really getting it now. You are so much into the Truth of what life and love is, that we tell you: everything is in perfect and divine order in your life right at this moment. Seek no longer any "improvement", just enjoy. It will only get better for you this way.

You still worry too much, and you still jump back and forth in you linear time. Stay still, live in a moment, and enjoy yourself. We'll take care of everything else; no, not for you, but with You.

Be simple, easy, flowing. Yes, flowering, of course. Do not worry about any kind of relationship with friends and others. Everything in this moment is perfectly fine; anything else is just a memory...

P.S. For the second part of this conversation see the next post Just A Memory, and for some thoughts preceding these questions - Notes from Curaçao posted for April 14 & 15.